Words Matter

Choose your words carefully because words matter.

You know what it's like when you sit down and ask yourself an honest question? You know when you let it come out in words for the first time? When you have danced around it for so long and found ways to distract yourself or ignore the thing- when you have been avoiding it, it can come as quite a surprise.

The answer can come as a surprise too. You can live with questions for quite sometime and be so afraid to answer them honestly that... well, that a lot of things can happen that you really did not want to. But you thought you were protecting yourself, right? Well, protecting yourself is one thing. Building up emotional walls to do it is quite another.

I have long been avoiding a question. I have even longer been avoiding the answer. You know, I really thought I was doing the smart thing. People would sometimes think that I was keeping them at a distance, keeping them out, if you will. They would try and make some plea for me to open up. If it was a girlfriend, it would be an emotional plea- and it would not work at all. If it was from a friend, they would try and guess what the cause of my precautions were and usually get it wrong. Either way, they never really got through to me.

You know what did get through to me? A good argument from a credible source. That is what has given me pause. That is what has given me a reason to begin to dismantle my walls brick by brick. I got a good argument from a credible source. That is what G-d used to get through to me.

In this war that I wage against the most difficult of enemies, myself, I have seen a great victory. Praise the Lord, for it came through reason. He is the source of reason; He is the source of this freedom, this victory. Brick by brick. Stone by stone. Step by step.