This Is Not For Everyone

"But I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For"

It is snowing right now.
But you are not here.
Did I send you away?

The library is quiet
But I cannot hear your voice
Did you run from me?

The coffee is hot
But it does not fill.
But did I make you think that you were there to fill me up?

Hours turned to days
Days turned to weeks
Weeks turned to months.

No great loss I told myself
But that did not explain
And you know how I like explanations.

"Hiding from me," you said
"Protecting you," you said I said.
You may care if I said it, but I only care if I believed it.

What is the truth?
There is a Christian way to see this,
And all knowledge that is true must be true in Christ.

And they will think I just said that,
Off-handedly,
As if I did not labour with great pain for just such a phrase.

Praise be to our creator
And thanks be to Him for His providence,
Who works all things.