And The Pain, It Stops You...

I should be working
But instead, I'm paralyzed by the pain of your loss
It seems like I can only hurt for one of you at a time
I can think about some of the others-- the litany,
But I can only feel one at a time.

I always wish it was me and not you
I always wish I could have helped
I always wished I could have been there
I always wish...

The days go by and a year draws close
I had the strangest thing happen to me not too long ago--
And guess who I would like to tell but can't...
I wish I could tell you of my new joy...

I'm making coffee at night-- it reminds me of you (and so many others...)
I'm praying that God will let me work
But the pain is too much
And I cannot ignore the pain- even for my own good.

I know that the Lord keeps His sheep,
I know that they hear his voice
I know that I miss you
I wish you were here, Nick, I wish you were here...