Desire = ?

Have you ever felt disqualified for something that you really wanted? You know, something deep-seated and burning... something you did not want to let go of. When I think things like that I do sometimes wonder if I have a right to think that just because I have the desire that it is ok for me to pursue whatever it is that I want.

There are plenty of good things in life that would be bad for some people to do under some circumstances. I wonder sometimes at the things I was taught when I was young. People would tell me things like, "the world is your oyster- you can be anything you want to be." Well that was just not true- I can want vocations that I have no aptitude for. I wanted to be a fighter-jet pilot. I've had glasses as long as I can remember and I can't always read the coffee menu if I'm at the back of the line (and wearing my glasses). I cannot be anything I want to be. I cannot have anything I want to have just because I desire it. I cannot go anywhere I want to go. Life has never been like that. It is not looking like life will be like that anytime soon.

So what do you do when you really want something but you are not sure it is ok for you to have it?