Tuesday, November 15, 2005

On Waiting

Have you ever had to wait on something that really was quite difficult? Perhaps something that was hard to not want? Something that was frustrating to wait for? Something that you really wanted? Have you ever had to wait on another person? Do you really hate the anticipation, the uncertainty, the longing? Like pain, I have spent a lot of time waiting. My two constant friends, the pain and the wait. They always seem to be there. There are some pains that God chooses not to take away. These are always with me. There are some things that I cannot make myself stop longing for- and these I wait for. There are places inside that I do not like to visit- places I do not let people into. It is in the fear that my true qualities are manifest. In the calm, many act well. It is in the fear.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Do pain and waiting always go together?

You posted earlier that success is only worthwhile if you have prepared and put forth effort (assuming this actually takes some time and by necessity; waiting.) So is waiting inherently painful for you or is it waiting with your hands tied that you hate? Are you still in agony if you are able to prepare for something while waiting for it to occur? Does it matter if you know the something is certain to happen?